Thursday, 8 January 2015

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Hi guys! Today I was planning to do a Best in Beauty 2014 post, but I just can't bring myself to do it. What I'm going to share here is something really personal to me and I have never shared anything too personal on my blog before. I try to keep it beauty only.

My dad is ill and he is going through test in the hospital at the moment. And my relationship hasn't been the best with him, because of the choices he has made in the past. Now I can see that these things are not important and I'm not sure how much more time I have with him. I know its selfish of me to want him to be around a long time. He is suffering and it just brakes my heart to see him like that. Seeing your parent suffer like...I don't have even words for it. Maybe if I have tried harder for him to come live with me or mom it wouldn't have ended up like this. I hope with all my heart he'll come out of it and I still have more time with him.

I just want to ask you all to send good wishes or a prayer our way. It would mean the world to me! Thank you!

19 comments:

  1. I think you have to put the past behind you and live in the now and enjoy the time you have together. HUgs xx

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  2. @ beautyqueenuk - Thank you! x

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  3. Laura my thoughts are with you and your family. Just enjoy your time together now and make your memories. XOXO

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  4. I'm so sorry to hear your dad is unwell, sending you my thoughts and hugs lovely xxx

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  5. I just wrote you a really long comment and then it decided not to publish it :(

    But I completely feel for you as my mum is going through something similar and we have never really had the greatest of relationships, I just know that now I want to be able to spend time with her in case the worst happens. I lost my dad 12 years ago very suddenly and it was traumatic so I'm glad knowing in some way that if the worst comes with my mum I have been able to spend time with her and put all our troubles away. I say don't dwell on the past and just really enjoy the time you have with him, make some memories and moments you can both cherish. Sending you lots of love and hugs xxx

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  6. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, I hope your father pulls through

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  7. Sending you lots of love and hugs lovely xxx

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  8. I hope your all okay my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family right now, take as long as you need to have a break and spend time with your dad.

    Sophie
    xx
    www.pocockins.co.uk

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  9. @ Mademoiselle Lala - Thank you so much! xx

    @ Michelle K - Thank you! xx

    @ Charli Bruce -Thank you! It makes sense what your saying and the way things are now it doesn't matter why we didn't get a long.

    @ Ebony - Thank you hun! xx

    @ Naffy - Thank you! :)

    @ Sophie - Thank you sweetie! xx

    @ loveforlacquer - Thank you! xx

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  10. Aww, hun. I'm so sorry. It is terrible thing to see someone you love suffer, especially a parent or someone who is like a parent. A few years ago I lost my grandfather who was like a parent to me. We we very close but as I grew older, I saw him less often. After he passed, I often felt guilty that I didn't do enough to care for him...and I still feel that way sometimes. But you cannot let those thoughts consume you. As others have said, focus on the now...build happy moments in the present. You will always treasure them. You and your father will be in my thoughts. I will think positively for his health and recovery. Big Hugs. xo

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  11. I'm so sorry that this is happening at the moment, thinking of you both x

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  12. I'm so sorry Laura, thinking of you and your family. Lots of love and best wishes coming your way!

    Jess xo

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  13. @ Kimmy - Thank you! This means a lot! xx

    @ Crazyblodegal - Thank you! xx

    @ Jess - Thank you hun! xx

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  14. I really do hope you get to spend as much time with him as you can, I really don't know what else to say, other than sorry.

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  15. I'm thinking of you and your family at this time Laura xx

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  16. @ beautykinguk - Thank you!

    @ Floral Danielle - Thank you so much! x

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  17. Oh Laura :( I really hope the time you have left together is going to help heal whatever has happened in the past. try not to dwell on the past in focus on the now. Thinking of you hun xx

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  18. @ Julie - Thank you hun! xxx

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